I’ve been posting negative things about my current situation on twitter and my dad sent me a message saying I shouldn’t because my employer might see it (they can’t, twitter and Facebook are both blocked here) and I’m “not really making myself popular with the people rooting for me”.
So basically, what I’m finding is that people want to hear about my experience, but they don’t want to hear the truth of how awful and put upon I feel when I find out at 10:45pm that I’m teaching at 4:00pm the next day. They don’t want the truth about how I still don’t know my class schedule for the term that’s already started. They want to know that things are all happy sunshine and rainbows and nothing bad is ever presented.
The truth is I spent most of my summer alone in my apartment trying to figure out what to do. The truth is this school is using me for my foreign status and paying me not as much as they would other foreigners. The truth is I still don’t know what other classes I’ll be teaching, but I have a feeling it’s going to be 50+ students again and the school will tell me I don’t have a textbook because they don’t understand why a spoken English class needs one.
The truth is not rainbows and sunshines, but if I’m going to pretend in person that everything is, I need a place to say everything isn’t.